Locked

Among this chaos lounge
I almost hear the sound
The crackings in my heart
Spreading its blood around

Feelings I can't explain
My chest, it can't contain
The more they lock me down
Im all inside, but lown

Is all so quiet here
I hear the void inside
Why did you choose to leave
Why cant you see how much I cried


The world is upside down
Everyone has their fights
That only brought us close
In the dark, we are the lights


The promises you made
They're gonna last a life
Making me lay down here
My pulses and a knife

Looking you in the eyes
I only see despair
I can not intervene
I cannot go out there

So now I lay and cry
This is what I can do
To blur myself for now
And wait to shine just for you

22.05.2020
Dia de Santa Rita de Cássia 

Bordado

Dos lados da face,
covinhas descansam.
No olhar inocente,
as pupilas dançam
enquanto a criança,
cercada de amor
em braços, carinhos
exibe o fulgor
da treva vencida
na luz despertada,
doçura de Infante
por todos, amada.
Venceu a esperança,
família cresceu.
Em meio às angústias,
menina nasceu,
provando pro mundo
possibilidade,
entre sacrifícios,
se amar de verdade.
A mãe, lutadora.
O pai, a meiguice,
o irmão só sorrisos,
a irmã, a bendisse.
e longe uma moça
com juras de amor,
carrega em seu peito
estima em ardor
por saber tão viva
criança bendita.
Em versos e rima,
poema recita,
bordando no mundo
tal linha e agulha,
bem-vinda, bendita!
A menina Giulia.

21.05.2020 Para Giulia Vieira

Hide

Hide, hide
I will catch you
if you do not hide

Hide, hide
I will catch you
if you do not hide

Run away
run as fast as you can, baby
run away

Hide, hide
I will get you
I will kill you
I will burn you
I will leave you

Hide, hide
I will find you!
Hide,
I...
Or I...
Or I will
find you
kill you
hide you

Hide, hide
hide from me
hide from us, or
nothing will remain from you.

Butterfly

Fly,
butterfly
fly trough the sky, buterfly.

Fly
in my hand,
let me touch your wings.

I wanna fly
like a butterfly,
like a butterfly trough the sky.

why all the wings are so brown?
things are so down, butterfly?
butterfly?
why, butterfly?

Why, butterfly?
don't tell a lie
butterfly.

Why, butterfly?
Don't tell a lie,
tell  me why
all the things are
falling from the sky,
falling from the sky,
falling from the sky,
butterfly, butterfly.

Sorrindo

Hoje eu pude ver
e ele me iluminou por dentro
e me fez sonhar
e o refletir

Hoje eu pude dividir
sonhos, alegrias
quase pude tocar
nosso sonho

e de tão perto
me ofuscava
tanta felicidade
tanta esperança

tudo isso
num só sorriso
que só  nós sabemos
que é o melhor sorriso do mundo.

Utopia

Não posso desistir
do que me corrói por dentro
do que me come viva

Esta ânsia de viver
de correr ao teu encontro
de ser tua por um dia
e poder morrer feliz

Não posso correr, nem fugir
e ela me acha, e me possui
essa vontade, essa
lembrança do futuro.
De estar contigo.

Findando

Lure

Como

como posso amar assim tão forte e tão rápido

acordar, e a primeira coisa que pensar, é você.

mesmo sabendo

mesmo ciente

que és

um sonho

a dream

un rêve

mesmo que seja

por um dia

uma hora

um ano

um jogo

a quest

a mission

a time

o dia está mesmo lindo

e eu estou linda

estou livre

estou leve

e o amor

vive

em mim

como posso amar assim?

amo um homem

amo um ser

que me ama

que me libertou

me fez ver

o quanto livre

eu devo ser

ai, eu não queria te perder...

Just for You

Why you doubt me

so unfair!

almost leave me

to despair

In my heart

the words come out

like a torrent

trough my mouth

and of course

they're all for you

that's because

my love is true

I would never

fake those things

'cause I know

what this could bring

Whith a broken heart

they die

for the power

of a lie

And for us,

for me and you

I want nothing

but the truth

Caleb

There's a line

that i can't see

that´s between

you, and me

won't be mine

I allways knew

but the thing

I'm sure you feel

And this thing

that's pure and true

the same love

I feel for you

won't be mine

I know...I know!!

But I'll take

before you go.

Castaway

In every hard word

in every fake smile

in every dirty joke

the things that make your style

those things can't fool me, babe

I see right trough your soul

the more you try to hide

i know it's just a role

you play this thing so well

you float above your pain

like they were not right there

like they don't leave a stain

I am here

don't be scared

listen dear

heart so flared

just wipe the dirt, and let's begin again

There's something in your words

I just could not resist

I fell inside that smile

and there is a huge abyss

curses and scoldings, well

in wounds and pain, they dwell

of you I won't be scared

no one has ever cared

I penetrated your love

profaned your deep defense

and in that sea of tears

there was a sinking boat

a castaway asleep

inside that little ship

I blew his eyes, softly

but he just could not wake

and now i sing for him

i try to wake him up

to see the glourious day

surrounding where he lay

(this is for you, chatinho)

Spell

I wanna put a spell on you

make you fall in love to me

drop you on the ground

hold you with my feet

look you in the eyes

make you gaze on me

make you say the words

you said you'd never speak

lay you in my bed

take you to the skies

then I'll make you leave

see my face no more

make you miss my skin

my smell, my love

make you beg for more

then I cast the spell away

and I die alone

away

in love.

All Again

First, I want you to kiss me
then say you love me
and make love to me
this will be our start
Then I want you to shoot me
hurt me, make fun of me
treat me like a whore
hunt me
aim me with your spear
be a vampire
drain me, all my blood
put a spell on me
curse me.
Then you try to live
without me
and you'll see you can't
and you call for me
and we'll do it all
again.

Be kind to me

be kind to me

when i scream for you

come hurry to my arms

come fix me up

and then i know

you care about

And if i dont come out

from my dreams

ow baby, stay

stay beside me

I'll let you know

I'll let you find

my way

back

to you

Serenity

serenity again, inside and out

she waited for so long

with a hurricane inside

strugling to hang on

dying every night

crying every dawn

in a desperate silent scream for help

and now she´s there

not believing yet

not seeing everything

but she is there

in that see

so serene

so blue

so warm

and she swims

she follows the flow

'cuz it´s ment to be

as all the things are

and serene is what she is

despites all the waves

worlds

She closes her eyes and see nothing, and see the other side

and the darkness turns clear, shines, shows itself

shows the other, the oposite, the contrary

shows the shine in his eyes, coming toward hers

makes her feel the panting breath

and the contact is made

and the rope is thrown from one side to the other, connecting the two worlds

the eyes fills up with tears, the body contracts, in a mix of fear and enthusiasm

and the dance begins

Love

love can have many shapes

a smell, a memory

a collor

a sound

music

taste

love can come and go

u allways know it

you can not hide

or avoid it

when u are open

it comes and shakes u up

like a storm

or a big wave

and drops you

from your high

from your pride

take you everything you have

leaves u naked

barefoot

helpless

makes you see yourself

in the eyes of the others

makes you cry for nothing

and for everything

makes you weak or strong

makes you cry and long

make you wait too much

makes you change your ways

love can take you

and turn you

upside down

cuz it is

the most powerfull thing

that god has created

To my friend M.

My other Half

I didn't know
that I was missing you
I felt the emptiness inside

but in the moment that
we found ourselves
It was so good
I could not hide

And in the moment
that you touched my skin
I felt the weakness in my feet

I lost the notion of reality
Seem like a thunder
My heartbeat

You're the other half of me
You're the water in my glass
You're the action in my peace
You're the order in my mess

Too Lost

The first time
You called me up
I couldn't go
I was tied up

If I knew
What was inside
I wouldn't wait for
Another tide

I was broken
like cristal
and lost as a sailor in open sea

And I missed you
'though I wanted you
I was desperate to
find you like
dry land to one that is lost in sea

And when you found me there
This time I was no scared
and then, I saw your eyes
in there, there was no lies

but it was too late to last
and it was too far to go
and it was too strong to hide
too hot to blow
too fast to know
and it was too beautiful to go on believing

and now I'm too lost to go.

Come With Me

Don't wanna cry
Don't wanna blame
Don't wanna fight
or be ashamed

I wanna feel
I want it real
Give me a smile
Give me a thrill

'cuz I don't waste
my time with tears
or hiding from
the deepest fears

I live my day
Enjoy the now

Come with me
Let it be
Grow your wings
Set it free

Take my hand
Don't look back
Leave the ground
Hear the sound

Come with me!

hiding

I am melting again

this time, not so good

a shadow remain

like twilight with rain

Don´t come close to me

at least, not this night

don't want you to see

me having this fight

I pray not to last

I want it to go

away from my heart

so far from my soul

Don´t look to my face

I´m not what you see

some tormented soul

is inside of me

and I am not as pure

and I am not as sane

I must be alone

and hide all this pain

I know i can win

I know i will do

be happy again

and come back to you

to give you my smile

to show you my soul

let you find myself

not half but the whole

Blushing

I melt like butter
When you speak
About affection
As you do
I start smiling
Opening like petal
As flower in the dawn
And i start blushing
Becoming red
As roses in the Sun
And i close my eyes
And try to hear
The little angels laughing
At my silly smile
And i try to see you
On the inside
To see if what is there
Is the same of what I have here.

Ghost

as a ghost you appear to me

only a voice
sometimes a whisper, a sigh
nor a face
a touch or a smile
no warmt, no breath
no skin or smell

only the idea that you can exist
in a place where i only reach in my dreams
i try to find my ways to feel your soul
cuz i can only see you in the mirror

Love path

I allways wanted to love

I allways wanted to feel

But sometimes, the love i felt

escaped from realm of real

It wandered trough woods of ilusion

it fought the beasts of deception

and ended up drowning on the river of tears

but, allways rescued, by the angel of hope

fairies of imagination try to sprinkle the dust of delusions

and dragons of reason try to pull it to the clouds of safety and sanity

but the feeling, keep following the path

and gives them no attention

my love is powerfull

and i am never afraid of the pain

Reward

Waiting for the pain

alone, fearless and brave

and, why not afraid?

'cuz after the pain

comes the reward

beauty

pleasure

love from within

love for the self

joy and pride

That makes the pain

worthfull

that makes the pain

sweet and wanted

cuz allways

after the bitter tears

comes the sweetest smiles

No Matter

I will pull you

into my world

I will tease you

Untill you loose your mind

'cuz I want you

I want you

I need you

No matter what it takes from me

I will chain you

Into my mind

I will take you

out of the world you are

'cuz I want you

I want you

I need you

No matter what it takes from me

I have waiting for so long

Now it´s time

to take what´s mine

'cuz I want you

I want you

I need you

No matter what you do

Not who I am

I am not a cry

I am not a tear

nor pain

neither anguish

I am not despair

or deception

neither melancholy

or pallor

I am smile

I am laugh

I am joker child

Who laugh without reason

who sings and who dances

without to explain

and the crying that comes

what name does it have?

comes from nowhere

and takes everything

takes me from seriousness

without to explain

takes away my smile

the singing, the dance

takes away the child

leaves me crying

what prayer i do?

what traces i make?

to trow away sadness

far away from here

to bring back the child

who sings and who dances

bring back the hope

to stay forever

~

eu não sou choro

não sou lágrima

não sou dor

nem sou angústia

não sou desespero

nem decepção

não sou melancolia

não sou palidez

sou sorriso

sou risada

sou criança levada

que ri sem motivo

que dança que canta

sem nada explicar

e o choro que vem

que nome que tem?

que chega do nada

dá conta de tudo

me tira do sério

sem nada explicar

me leva o sorriso

o canto, a dança

me leva a criança

me deixa a chorar

que reza que eu faço

que risco que eu traço

que espanta a tristeza

pra longe levar

me traz a criança

que canta, que dança

me traz a esperança

pra sempre ficar

terra e fogo

tão sereno é

tranquilo, sem pressa, sem dor

tudo como deve ser

e onde eu quero estar

mas aqui, dentro de mim

é tormenta, é o mar, o vento

é a luz e a sombra

é o frio e o quente

o prazer e a dor

nada fica quieto, parado

é tudo vida e morte, idas e vindas

é tudo tão rápido

tudo tão louco

e eu fico querendo

trazer pra dentro

aquela paz

que você me ensina

e eu não aprendo

porque você é a terra

e eu sou o fogo

~

so serene it is

quiet, no rush, no pain

all as it should be

and where i want to be

but here, inside me

is torment, is sea, is wind

is light and shadow

s cold and hot

is pleasure and pain

nothing stand still, quiet

all is life and death, comes and goes

all is so quick

all so crazy

and i keep wanting

to bring to inside

that peace

that you teach me

and i dont learn

cuz you are land

and i am fire

Smile

I have a smile for you

It is here when i wake up

when the first light come into my eyes

and when i take my first breath of the day

It is here when i put my feet on the ground

and when i walk around the world

thinking of you all day long

It is here when the tears want to fall

it is here when they ask for my love

and i give it to them when they ask

cuz i can not give it to you

as i wanted to do