hiding

I am melting again

this time, not so good

a shadow remain

like twilight with rain

Don´t come close to me

at least, not this night

don't want you to see

me having this fight

I pray not to last

I want it to go

away from my heart

so far from my soul

Don´t look to my face

I´m not what you see

some tormented soul

is inside of me

and I am not as pure

and I am not as sane

I must be alone

and hide all this pain

I know i can win

I know i will do

be happy again

and come back to you

to give you my smile

to show you my soul

let you find myself

not half but the whole

Blushing

I melt like butter
When you speak
About affection
As you do
I start smiling
Opening like petal
As flower in the dawn
And i start blushing
Becoming red
As roses in the Sun
And i close my eyes
And try to hear
The little angels laughing
At my silly smile
And i try to see you
On the inside
To see if what is there
Is the same of what I have here.

Ghost

as a ghost you appear to me

only a voice
sometimes a whisper, a sigh
nor a face
a touch or a smile
no warmt, no breath
no skin or smell

only the idea that you can exist
in a place where i only reach in my dreams
i try to find my ways to feel your soul
cuz i can only see you in the mirror

Love path

I allways wanted to love

I allways wanted to feel

But sometimes, the love i felt

escaped from realm of real

It wandered trough woods of ilusion

it fought the beasts of deception

and ended up drowning on the river of tears

but, allways rescued, by the angel of hope

fairies of imagination try to sprinkle the dust of delusions

and dragons of reason try to pull it to the clouds of safety and sanity

but the feeling, keep following the path

and gives them no attention

my love is powerfull

and i am never afraid of the pain

Reward

Waiting for the pain

alone, fearless and brave

and, why not afraid?

'cuz after the pain

comes the reward

beauty

pleasure

love from within

love for the self

joy and pride

That makes the pain

worthfull

that makes the pain

sweet and wanted

cuz allways

after the bitter tears

comes the sweetest smiles

No Matter

I will pull you

into my world

I will tease you

Untill you loose your mind

'cuz I want you

I want you

I need you

No matter what it takes from me

I will chain you

Into my mind

I will take you

out of the world you are

'cuz I want you

I want you

I need you

No matter what it takes from me

I have waiting for so long

Now it´s time

to take what´s mine

'cuz I want you

I want you

I need you

No matter what you do

Not who I am

I am not a cry

I am not a tear

nor pain

neither anguish

I am not despair

or deception

neither melancholy

or pallor

I am smile

I am laugh

I am joker child

Who laugh without reason

who sings and who dances

without to explain

and the crying that comes

what name does it have?

comes from nowhere

and takes everything

takes me from seriousness

without to explain

takes away my smile

the singing, the dance

takes away the child

leaves me crying

what prayer i do?

what traces i make?

to trow away sadness

far away from here

to bring back the child

who sings and who dances

bring back the hope

to stay forever

~

eu não sou choro

não sou lágrima

não sou dor

nem sou angústia

não sou desespero

nem decepção

não sou melancolia

não sou palidez

sou sorriso

sou risada

sou criança levada

que ri sem motivo

que dança que canta

sem nada explicar

e o choro que vem

que nome que tem?

que chega do nada

dá conta de tudo

me tira do sério

sem nada explicar

me leva o sorriso

o canto, a dança

me leva a criança

me deixa a chorar

que reza que eu faço

que risco que eu traço

que espanta a tristeza

pra longe levar

me traz a criança

que canta, que dança

me traz a esperança

pra sempre ficar

terra e fogo

tão sereno é

tranquilo, sem pressa, sem dor

tudo como deve ser

e onde eu quero estar

mas aqui, dentro de mim

é tormenta, é o mar, o vento

é a luz e a sombra

é o frio e o quente

o prazer e a dor

nada fica quieto, parado

é tudo vida e morte, idas e vindas

é tudo tão rápido

tudo tão louco

e eu fico querendo

trazer pra dentro

aquela paz

que você me ensina

e eu não aprendo

porque você é a terra

e eu sou o fogo

~

so serene it is

quiet, no rush, no pain

all as it should be

and where i want to be

but here, inside me

is torment, is sea, is wind

is light and shadow

s cold and hot

is pleasure and pain

nothing stand still, quiet

all is life and death, comes and goes

all is so quick

all so crazy

and i keep wanting

to bring to inside

that peace

that you teach me

and i dont learn

cuz you are land

and i am fire

Smile

I have a smile for you

It is here when i wake up

when the first light come into my eyes

and when i take my first breath of the day

It is here when i put my feet on the ground

and when i walk around the world

thinking of you all day long

It is here when the tears want to fall

it is here when they ask for my love

and i give it to them when they ask

cuz i can not give it to you

as i wanted to do

Hope

inside

at day

i wait for the night

outside

all them

don't know what i have

alone

at night

i think about all

and i keep making my way

learning to love

this strange one inside

it´s hard when you hope

so hard just to wait

but hope is the one

that keeps me alive

Shine

no matter

if i cry

or scream

or hurt myself alone

no one hears

no one cares

but if i sing

if i smile

if i laugh

the angels will hear

and they will spread

my happiness

in the sky

among the stars

and you will see

their bright

shining on your lonely nights

Spaceship

lá no espaço infinito

entre o negro e os brancos pontos brilhantes

é lá que eu quero ficar

vendo o tempo passar

e fora dele, ausente, inerte

nos teus braços, no teu calor

como num ninho, seguro, em paz

sem medo, sem ânsia

nem lágrimas, nem voz

porque não é preciso

tudo está certo

é lá no infinito

no escuro

no fim de tudo

que eu quero estar

contigo

pra sempre.

~

there in the infinite space

between the dark, and the white shiny dots

is there that i want to stay

seeing the time passing by

and outside it, absence, still

in your arms, in your warmt

as in a nest, safe, in peace

without fear, without haste

nor tears, or voice

because there is no need

all is right

and there, in the infinite

in the dark

in the end of all

is where i want to be

with you

forever.

Again

again is my main word

again is how things happen

again is how i fall every night

again is how i raise every day, from the ashes

again i wanted to touch you, reach you, have you for a moment

again i couldn´t do it

again i was afraid, a coward

and again i cried

but still i am strong, and i look inside and see the light

and again i try to get up, to continue living

breathing...surviving

again i thought about ending

and again i blow the thought away

cuz i want to see you there

again

and again

Blak Fur - part II

in the sun

she walks her way

on a cross

she finds the stray

tanned skin

and swirled horns

red deep eyes

his clothes with torns

by the lock

she understood

that inded

he ment the good

when in time

he touched heart

all her fears

they fell apart

but the doll

full of lust

tried to get

the male´s trust

can´t suceed

he was mean

called her skint

(whathever it means)

and the doll

was so sad

that fell out

on street like dead

and the mean

made the switch

started to grab

another bitch

Blak Fur

at midnight

on the street

dark and cold

there she meets

dark black fur

deep red eyes

shadows blur

there he lies

and the doll

with no fear

comes too close

calls him dear

fearless doll

in the night

tease and waits

for his bite

but the beast

mean no harm

gave her fuel

on her arm

there she goes

safe and sound

turns and waves

to the hound

Moon

i was scared

i ran away from you

as if i knew

you would come

as a hurricane

and inside me you would land

and stick your flag in my heart

like if i was the moon

between all the shiny things in heaven

you chose me

and so, for it

i will shine

forever

Feeling

butterflies on the stomack,

the cold hands tremble, hurts

the mind travels

far in the space

looking for a spot to land

but this spot is too far

and she cant arrive

and feels the emptiness

on the inside

aching, burning

and feels the desire rising, raising

without refrain

Vampire

And he saw the ladie
dumped, like spoiled fruid
and he took her body
and rescued her from pitty

And he gave her shelter
and confort
and trust

And he gave her strenght back
but he was hungry
and she was lonely, lost and weak
and he took advantage of her

and he took her blood
and her soul
and her heart

Waking Up

Trough mud and the scratches
and darkness and pain
she dances and giggles
she sings in the rain
her hair is undone and
we see trough her dress.

He stands on a wall and
his eyes we can't see
the smoke on his lungs
and the poison in veins
the knifes and the guns
all the pride and the lies.

The storm brings the water
and noises, and lights.
Spetacle of nature that
wakes up two souls.
The phantoms are waking,
the light and the dark.

The doll and the killer,
the joy and the pain

He sleeps and have nightmares
she sings and she plays

she smells like a flower
he always complains

Two halfs of the circle
the moon and the sun
the distance and diferences
kept them apart
although all the oposites
reaches themselves

They long for each other
but they never know
the curse do it's work
and the magic is strong

Two distant and lonely
will seek and will long

The Killer

He can't sleep
has nightmares
remembers,
regrets.

Has no hope,
no feelings.
His days
are all
the same.

Trough shadows
he wanders.
The moon knows
him well.

They all fear
his cruelty.
He's devil
in hell.

Boneca

Na falta de luz
dos olhos azuis
tal mar que reluz
as cores do ar.

Seu jeito contido,
o corpo encolhido,
o doce do olhar
sem alma, sem par.

Por dentro, o tremor
sugere o pavor.
Por fora, o torpor
não deixa mostrar.

A fria apatia
da expressão vazia
que foge do olhar
de quem a fitar.

Somente o passado
em segredo guardado
revela o legado
da caixa a guardar.

Boneca esquecida,
fantoche sem vida
de roupa encardida,
sem dono, nem lar.

A pele não sente
nem frio, nem quente.
A carne dormente.
Somente o olhar.

No céu, um tormento
trovão violento
provoca o evento,
atroz despertar.

O corpo respira,
os braços estira,
palavra suspira
tentando falar.

No rosto, a docura.
Na alma, agrura.
A estranha figura
na noite a vagar.

Stubborn

Why so still
stiff and cold
serious, firm
in quiet, hold

why no smile
when you I poke
nor a laught
for silly joke

trought a wall
i try to speak
with disdain
you make me weak

I don't care
I won't refrain
breathe and try
never complain

and one day
the Ice I'll break
sweet will be
your heart I'll take

Wanderer

Teasing fate

I wander trough the dark

Wondering if I’m right or wrong

Full of lust

I wait until I find

Someone who can

Spend my time

Don’t think too much

There’s nothing wrong with

That all

And all I want is

I want is…

I want…

I want you

And though I search for

Illusion

And no love at all

Although it hurts me

And hurts you

I want to do

I have no more sense

I have been so blind

I have left the floor

Long time ago

I’m not true

I lied to you

I was gone

Become stone

I left you blue

But I can still feel… (you)

Inside hurts me… (too)

I know I’ll never

Belong to…(you)

Dive Deep

Why not to love?

Why not to feel?

Our heart is strong

It always heal

Although we hurt

although we cry

sometimes is cruel

but worths to try

How strong you are?

do dive that sea,

to swim so deep

trough love for me?

I have no fear

to fall for you

my heart is strong

and always true

I may not reach

your love for me

but without try

I'll never see

The Doll and the Killer

Strong
hard
dificult
he hides behind his mask

soft
weak
lost
she fights to reach his world

a knife
a gun
a wall
he kills all those who comes

a tear
a face
a lie
she´ll do whatever it takes

chasing
hurting
cheating
he never can be trusted

playing
teasing
luring
she never could get his attention

dying
dreaming
faking
only this way they´re together

Fool

She Always Smiles
she´s always fun
she always comes
and brings the sun

she never lies
she never steal
nobody knows
but she can feel

and then we ask
why she is alone
nobody saw
when she has gone

she hides and cry
never complains
comes back and smiles
hiding the pains

Little Zombie Doll

The little zombie doll
she woke up in a mall
inside a box she lies
and then open her eyes
she breaks the glass and runs
makes way between the bums
she has her blood no more
in past she was a whore
but someone on her way
killed one that forced her stray
she has no owner now
she is neither on the mall
walks lonely trough the streets
belongs to whom she meets
one day she cried so sad
she made her boss so mad
he put milk in her veins
to make her change her strains

Zombie

Little voodoo doll
with a white porcelain skin
dressing only black and white
dancing on a dark alley
where weardos take place

she fears nothing
and causes no fear
just wanna be turned on
the little doll in black

ears like cats
skin so white and soft
she dances and waits
for someone
to save her from oblivion

she dances
she laughts
but nobody cares

Inde

Dark figure of the night
put my mind wide awake
i can barely see the face
hiden up by a shadow

poisons and guns
cold blood driping
white skin
showing it's veins
and the pain beneath the flesh

behind the staid stare
lies a soul
well hidden in the dirty
of the fears and regrets

this little blody pupet
in your sholders
is a scarecrow
for hope and salvation
but i read on it
that no harm
you can do
to me
and i wish
you could set
me free

Frank

My little sister Frank
is armed as a tank
with colour in her hair
and happy shiny stare

she likes to pierce her ears
for pain she has no fears
she is allways with a gun
I'm sure she needs no mom

she is allways with her pet
a cute little black cat
and when she is in a spar
she is shiny like a star

she is always with a gun
she likes the fight so fun
and when she's by my side
she makes my nights more bright

Flygene

She scares me a little bit
i think it's not her fault
she has a scarry voodoo look
not that i care about
her ways are so unusual, but
i like the way she is
she has a bloody style of life
i think that that's her bliss
the razorwires
they are just a frill
inside that girl
is sweet and still
she aims and shoots
inside our hearts
and leaves a scar
like works of art

Devil´s Doll

I might be a lost soul
wandering around
on the dark streets, at night

I might me a dark doll
with a broken key
and a broken heart
thinking I'm still alive

you can be a black mist
a shadow in the corner of the eye

you can be a ghost
a phantom, a dream
i can hear your breath
you can smell my blood

no one in the night can see
no one in the streets can feel
only in my dreams you live
only in the darknes´s still

no one in the world knows
no one can the pain heal
neither can my tears dry
breaking up the devil's deal

Spell

I wanna put a spell on you
make you fall in love to me
drop you on the ground
hold you with my feet
look you in the eyes
make you gaze on me
make you say the words
you said you'd never speak
lay you in my bed
take you to the skies
then I'll make you leave
see my face no more
make you miss my skin
my smell, my love
make you beg for more
then I cast the spell away
and I die alone
away
in love.

All Again

First, I want you to kiss me

then say you love me

and make love with me

this will be our start

Then I want you to shoot me

hurt me, make fun of me

treat me like a whore

hunt me

aim me with your spear

be a vampire

drain me, all my blood

put a spell on me

curse me.

Then you try to live

without me

and you'll see you can't

and you call for me

and we'll do it all

again.

Dreaming

Be kind to me

be kind to me

when i scream for you

come hurry to my arms

come fix me up

and then i know

you care about

And if i dont come out

from my dreams

ow baby, stay

stay beside me

I'll let you know

I'll let you find

my way

back

to you

~Urchin Boy ~

I met a boy today

not a simple boy, I may say

he has the sunshine in his hair

and claims he's not my heir

has many friends this little boy

has friends from head to toes

his little urchins from the sea

they follow him to where he goes

in broken leg, an urchin lay

under the trees, remains astray

he has no fear, he walks alone

urchins in head, the hair undone

the brightfull eyes so shiny glow

he is my heir as far I know

He didn't agree, he is just a kid

i gave my hand, he may not need

so wise so brave

urchins as toy

my blood in veins

my granson boy

~ Away from Sea ~

There she sits up on a stone

where the wind comes blow her hair

and the white foam of the sea

come to lick the shiny scales

There she waits for such a thing

that only her heart can explain

nor the fish, and nor the birds

nor the wind, the stars, the moon

no force of nature in her world

can her desire restrain

'cause she has lost her pure heart

in earth far away from sea

where those who have feet can walk

and where no mermaids can be

where the sea breeze reaches land

and blows up the orange tree

there we find his long demand

watching all day long, the sea

in the blue, the dolphin sing

telling tales for her to hear

'though she can not hear no thing

but the calling of her dear

~Pointy Ears~

and then she saw the pointed ears

a purple skin, a haughty stare

and then he saw her bodie scales

a long red hair, no legs, just fins

and then a wind

that blows so cold

brougt up this two

so close to hold

and then they stay

a gazed stare

untill the sun

was no more there

within a kiss, she said goodbye

he holding her, a tear on eye

the poity ears, ashore to wish

a day to see, his lovely fish

~ imortal ~

to live forever

and never die

i wonder

how love can be

to an imortal soul

is it good

or is it bad

is it too much

or maybe nothing

but seeing you

in al that peace

i cant decide

what kind of love

this could be

Time

Sometimes

the time is not fair

it passes by in misterious ways

leaving us behind, stupefied

sometimes we think we have it all

and we discover, too late

that we have nothing

that time has cheated on us

Sometime love is at our side

and we can see it

untill its too late

untill we find ourselves

in lonelyness.